walk on, with hope in your heart

So, this is the first post of my new blog. I sort of doubt that many people will read it, but what the hell. I'm going to use this space as a place to just vent, and talk about how i feel about life in general.

First, let me introduce myself. My name is Rich, and I'm 23 years old. I was born in South Africa to English parents, then moved to England at the age of 1. I moved from England to the US at the age of 8, and I find myself still here, in Detroit, Michigan. I love sports, especially soccer and hockey, and i like football too. I have a brother, a dog, and two great parents. I'm currently single, and well, that sucks, but maybe that will change. Anyway, i think that's all you really need to know right now. So, now, I will jot down some thoughts.

Today sort of sucked. I had to work, which generally isn't too bad. But today was lame. This weekend they are having an auction at the ice rink I work at. In order to do this, they put boards down on the ice, and are making a giant mess all throughout the rink that I have to clean up. Now, if I were a janitor, I would have no reason to complain. But, I'm not a janitor. I am a Zamboni driver. I'd much rather be driving the zam all day, but no, i get stuck cleaning marks off of walls, painting, cleaning glass, mopping up dance floors, sweeping, vacuuming, removing glass, building stairs, laying carpet down, and my personal favorite, cleaning toilets.

I guess I cant really complain too much. Yes it sucks. But compared to how some people live, its not bad. Fuck, I could be in Iraq facing IED's and god knows what else. And with the economy the way it is in Michigan right now, I guess I should be happy that I have a job at all.

I'd rather be driving the zam though. Just gonna throw that out there....

The job I have is not very conducive to meeting members of the opposite sex. Its a pretty lonely job. Most of the night i sit on my own in the Zamboni room. If not there, I'm roaming around the rink trying to keep it clean, listening to my ipod. "With my headphones on for this world I ignore" That's a lyric from an Atmosphere song. I often feel like I'm ignoring the world when my headphones are on. anyway, back the the point. I have been single for a while here. I mean, I have had a few decent little flings here or there. but for the most part, I have been single for about 3 years. I certainly haven't had a meaningful relationship in that time period. I think a lot of that is because the last one ended so badly. It sort of made me not want to have another one anytime soon. But I'm at the point now where I do want someone. I miss having that companionship. I don't really have too many friends, so i spend a lot of time on my own. Id say its fair to say I'm a pretty lonely person actually. Its pretty sad to be honest. But, I'm hopeful that will change in the somewhat near future.

OK, that is gonna do it for tonight. Its 11PM on a Friday night and i need to go to sleep. Meanwhile, my little brother is at a frat party, and my mom and dad are out partying with their friends. And here I am, in bed, because I have to get up at 6 am for work on Saturday. What is wrong with this picture?

Goodnight world